Enchanted By Destiny

^Yes, I realise this is a scene from high school musical 3. This picture is supposed to show Destiny and Jay dancing in the rain. So please try to forget that it's from high school musical!

Author's Note:
This is the longest poem I've ever written. I guess I got caught up in the story and I just couldn't stop writing. I wasn't going to be satisfied until I'd told Destiny and Jay's story. Do you think it should of had a different ending? Comment with your opinion! Maybe one day I'll turn this poem into a book to further develop the characters and the story.


Enchanted By Destiny

Everyone thinks she’s crazy, that her head’s caught in the clouds
No one knows what’s inside her, a heart that’s filled with doubt
She has a free spirit, and on her face a blissful smile
Always happy and full of joy, but what hides behind the smile?
Surely no one can be truely happy with so much pain in the world
Yet she, the one with blue eyes bright, a cheerful girl
Her smile makes even the saddest of souls see hope
A smile really can make a difference when one feels they cannot cope
The girl, her spirit free, skipped along with endless joy
But everything seemed to change, the day she met the boy
He wondered about her blissful smile and her enchanting eyes
She hardly even noticed him, and carelessly skipped by
“Excuse me” said the boy, “I really must know your name”
The girl smiled at him, just as it started to rain
Those two, they ran for cover, the girl stopping on the way
The boy watched in amazement, as she began to play
“What are you doing?” the boy yelled, he still didn’t know her name
“Are you questioning my sanity?” she laughed, “or have you never danced in the rain?”
The boy frowned in confusion, the girl than took his hand
They got drenched, but dance they did, all along the sand
The sun started to set as the waves crashed on the beach
The girl looked up at the clouds, and with her hands she reached
“What are you trying to grab?” said the boy “the sky is much too high”
“The sky is never the limit!” she said in a joyful cry
“Why are you always happy?” asked the boy in confusion “it simply cannot be done”
“Anything is possible” she laughed “loosen up and have fun!”
The girl said her name was Destiny, that she was an orphan ‘till now
The boy, whose name was Jay, asked her to explain how
Destiny told her sad story, without shedding a single tear
Her parents died in a car accident when she was small, she remembers the fear
Destiny was in the car but miraculously survived as she was in the back
Her parents weren’t so lucky, when the car veered off-track
She was put in an orphanage and has never been sad
Destiny explained how she saw no reason NOT to be glad
“The loss of your parents and no family, surely it must have hurt”
Destiny looked at Jay and said “Yes, but what is pain worth?”
Enchanted by her eyes, her words and her inspiring story
The way she fearlessly held her head high and exulted the day with glory
Jay was enchanted with Destiny, he felt drawn to her in some way
That wasn’t the last time they saw each other, they met nearly everyday
Everything seemed perfect, like nothing could possibly go wrong
Their romance blossomed, their hearts connected in some way, they seemed so strong
One thing led to another, a misunderstanding, they went off the deep end
Finally, Destiny understood pain and “broken hearts” It felt like she would never mend
Jay went to see Destiny; he regretted everything he had done
“Don’t you get it Jay?!” Destiny cried “it’s all over, you’ve won!”
“No” said Jay “I’m sorry. I can’t win if we’re not together”
With tears streaming down her face she said “there’s no such thing as forever”
Jay left and never again would he see Destiny’s beautiful smile
Her spirit, once free, was locked in her broken heart for a while
Destiny no longer skipped along, her eyes sparkling in joy
Jay was full of sadness and regret, he felt like the worst boy
They never saw each other again up until this very day
Destiny learnt what pain was, Maybe it was meant to be this way
Wherever he is, Jay remembers the good times and wishes he could rewind
He’ll always be enchanted by Destiny, another girl like her he’ll never find


The End

By Rebekah Riot!

Copyright (c)

Destiny experiences a whole new feeling when she is left heart-broken.

Jay regrets his actions and tries to apologize and make things right between him and Destiny. Destiny is still heart-broken and tells him to leave her alone. Jay never sees Destiny again.

Update

Just an update:
I have changed the title of my book "poison ivy" to "forever and a day". The book has it's own blog page that you can find here: www.4evaandaday.blogspot.com
Hope you follow and keep reading as i write more chapters.
Cover design can also be seen on the blog.
Thanks!

a new puppy

a new puppy! how exciting! a bundle of fur!
running so fast, his legs are a blur!
endlessly happy and full of joy
chews on EVERYTHING except his toys!
big brown eyes and floppy ears
i want this puppy for years and years
naughty and playful, the puppy for me
my new puppy, happy and free

Empty Core

She lies broken and crumpled on the floor
She screams "i can't do this anymore!"
She violently cuts at her arms
Maybe she'll feel better with self-harm
She thinks everyone hates her, that she is alone
She cries herself to sleep and won't answer the phone
The voices drive her crazy, she does what they say
She pushes everyone she loves far away
She can't control herself and the things that she does
She's thinking of death because of a broken love
She stands on the edge and looks down from the sky
Now is her day, she's ready to fly
Down through the air and thump on the ground
Her screaming and crying a horrific sound
Now her screams are silenced, she won't hurt anymore
No more beating of her broken heart in her empty core

Void

What’s the point in living, when everyone wants you dead?
What’s the point in love when it’s screwing in your head?
What’s the point in living, when everyone hates you more each day?
What’s the point of anything if the one you love pushes you away?
I love him more than anything but I’m afraid of getting hurt
So I hurt him and lied to him for all that I was worth
I stabbed him in the back and didn’t mean to hurt him at all
Now I’m regretting everything and bashing my head on a wall
I push everyone away, without realizing I just….avoid
The panic and loneliness is creeping up…sucking me into its void.

Sorry

Knowing you’re mad at me brings a tear to my eye
Its even worse cos it’s all my fault, is this goodbye?
You say you forgive me, that everything’s good
I’m just so ashamed; I wanna hide in a hood
I can never forgive myself for what I did
It’s like I unconsciously made a mistake, like a kid
I guess I’ll always love you in some way
Even if you won’t give me the time of day
The unrequited love back then really sucked
But that’s no reason for my stupid revenge, enough is enough
I didn’t even want revenge; I just wanted to make you happy
But I screwed up big time and everything went crappy
You say you forgive me that you’re no longer mad
But the fact that I hurt you makes me feel sad

mess

i am a doofus i mess everything up
i keep hurting people, i can't get enough
i don't know why, i really don't mean it
i've made so many mistakes, throw me in a pit
i'm sorry, i still want to be your friend
but i'm a dickhead making things end
seriously, i just.....i can't find the words
for you to forgive me would just be absurd

Lie To Me

You said you loved me; you were lying through your teeth
But I was so in love, and stupid enough to believe
Lie to me now, I dare you, I’ll see right through your lies
To get anything past me, you’re going to need a heavy disguise
Why would you say you loved me and then run away?
Why couldn’t you just tell me you didn’t feel the same way?
Why did you have to lie? Were you trying to spare my feelings?
You’ve spun yourself a complicated web with all your dealing
Please don’t spare my feelings, lay down all the cards
Just say it, say it now, out loud, it’s not that bloody hard!
I know you love someone else, and you don’t want me
You don’t have to try and hide it, it’s obvious to see
Say you love her! I want to see you squirm!
I want to see you suffer, you disgusting little worm!
Say it to my face! I was honest with you after all
Spit it out already, I hope you feel really small
This may be mean, but I suffered more than you
How hard do you think it was, when you denied the truth?
I want you to know exactly how much it hurt
I want you to tell me the truth, for all you’re worth!
Right now I know you are with her
I’m thinking of the times that were
Everything that we have been through
Now it feels like I’m losing you
I hope you see my face when you look into her eyes
I hope you think about me, and let out a painful cry
I hope you feel remorse, when you think about me
I hope you wish that things worked out differently
I’m sitting at home, knowing you are there
Knowing you are with her, I wish I didn’t care
Watching you love someone else, is so hard
It hurts so much, that my heart is scarred
I’m struggling to hold it together at all
I hope you’re there to watch me fall
The hardest thing for me, is knowing you love her
When I love you so much, my sight is just a blur
My eyes are full of tears that block out my sight
You shouldn’t have lied, saying sorry won’t make it right
Nothing will make it right, don’t you see?
You can’t take back those words that hurt me
Go on, I dare you, try it again, lets see
If you have the nerve, lie to me

By Rebekah Riot!
Copyright

New Moon Poem

New Moon Poem
Bella’s Point Of View
You took me to the forest, and said you had to leave
Your face was so solemn, but still I did not believe
I said I must go with you, but you ordered me to stay
You said you didn’t want me and you had to go far away
You said this was the last time I would ever see you
You kissed my cheek and walked away, was it really you?
Why would you leave me? You don’t love me anymore?
You said you didn’t want me; it shook me to the core
I stood there in the forest and whispered “he’s gone”
I fell to the forest floor in tears; I tried so hard to be strong
I lay there until nightfall, crying and shaking from the cold
You left me and never again would I see your eyes of gold
I found a friend in Jacob, and he healed the hole in my heart
He held me all together when I felt I would fall apart
I started hearing your voice, when I put myself in harms way
I did dangerous and stupid things, to hear what you had to say
One day, I missed you so much; I cried and gave a little sniff
I stood still, looking over the edge, and then I jumped off of the cliff
I heard your voice as I fell down through the air
You screamed at me, your voice was just so scared
I fell into the water, I couldn’t move or see
Things started to go black, but someone held onto me
We broke through the surface and I gasped for air
Jacob, my hero, he saved me, I’m so glad he was there
Things started to get bad again, I felt I couldn’t cope
The night I saw the black car, my heart was filled with hope
I ran inside and saw Alice waiting there for me
Why had she come back? How could this be?
She told me that she had a vision of me jumping off the cliff
That Edward thought I had committed suicide, my body went stiff
Edward told me that without me he had no reason for life
He said if he ever lost me, he’d get the Volturi to end his life
In a desperate panic me and Alice headed for the plane
We had to fly to Italy in time; I had to scream his name
We landed and got off the plane and Alice stole a sports car
We had no choice; walking or a taxi wouldn’t get us very far
We drove through the town; we needed to go much faster
If we didn’t get there in time, it would end in disaster
I got out and ran through the crowds, Edward was standing there
He was going to walk in the sun, reveal himself, I was so scared
I ran as fast as my legs would carry me and jumped into his arms
I stopped him just in time; I had kept my Edward from harm
He held me tight, and I held him, we kissed with all the love in our hearts
I knew from that moment when he held me, that never again would we be apart

By Rebekah Riot!
Copyright

Dedication:

For All The Twilight Saga Fans Out There!

Let Me Be Me

I’m not going to hide what I’m feeling
I’m not going to cover the fact that I’m not dealing
I’m not going to change myself for anyone that’s for sure
Obviously they’re not worth it if they want more
This is all I’ve got to offer, this is who I want to be
So don’t complain, accept it, let me be me

You think I’m a pathetic mess in need of help?
You think my file should be placed on a psycho shelf?
Well I’ve got news for you, I’m never gonna change
Even if you think that I’m crazy, a little strange
This is all I’ve got to offer, this is who I want to be
So don’t complain, accept it, let me be me

Why do I keep hoping you will talk to me?
When you are the one who tried to change me?
I don’t want this, I have to go away, leave now
I can’t be with you; I have to stop this, somehow
Time heals all wounds is what they say
But I’m still sorry it had to end this way

You can’t really expect me to change myself for you
I don’t need you putting me down, that’s why we’re through
Either you like me the way I am or you don’t
Honestly I won’t lose any sleep over this, I won’t
This is all I’ve got to offer, this is who I want to be
So don’t complain, accept it, let me be me

You say you’re sorry and you like me the way I am
Sorry, I don’t buy your lies, I don’t give a damn
You’re not sorry, no matter how many times you say you are
I don’t believe in second chances, stupid apologies won’t get you far

I’m not gonna change for you, you get the package deal
All or nothing with me, this is how I feel
Why don’t you just leave me alone? Give up, let this go
Stop trying to take back your words, you are so low
We will never work together; you’re not the boss of me
I can’t stand to speak to you anymore, let me be!

You tried to change me, what a stupid mistake
You should’ve known better, I’m no fake
Walk away now, leave me alone, let it go
Time to say goodbye now, I’m sick of your show
I know the phrase “never give up” but the act is wearing thin
Forget your apologies; throw your pathetic letters in the bin
I don’t want you, I thought I made that clear
Obviously you were too ignorant to hear

You tried to change me, stupid boy
Bet you wish you could turn back time
But you can’t

He Falls

Please forget me she says in a desperate plea
All this pain it isn’t worth it, let me be
He says he can’t forget her, he won’t attempt to try
Tears begin to form and she lets out one last cry
It hurts when we’re apart, but more when we’re together
He says he thought they were meant to be forever
She runs away then, and he attempts to follow
How could she leave him? Inside he is now hollow
He has no heartbeat anymore, can’t continue his life at all
Without her, there’s no reason for anything, he falls.

The End

Dedication:
This poem is for all the twilight saga fans out there.
This poem was inspired by the second book in the series, new moon. I just switched the roles. So it's a girl leaving a boy (Edward leaves Bella in New Moon).

If Nothing More

I didn’t know all these emotions were locked inside my heart
I didn’t know I could feel all this until you tore me apart
I broke down in front of you and I wrote down what I felt
You read it all and saw the cards that I was dealt
You’ve seen the insides of me, that no one has seen before
You saw me right to my heart, right to my inner core
You watched me as I fell apart
You watched me as you broke my heart
I didn’t think you cared at all
You were there to watch me fall
Now who will pick me up again?
Will you be there to be my friend?
If nothing more

Dedication:
You know who you are.
I'm sorry you had to see the darker side of me.
I'm not some emotional wreck.
I'm a happy person!

Take Back Those Words

She didn’t mean to say it
It didn’t come out quite right
She wishes she could turn back time
She didn’t want to start a fight

Now she does a double take
To try and take back her words
But it's impossible, a mindless mistake
Meaningless and absurd

Her best friend has deserted her
All because of those words
The conversation is just a blur
She wishes she never heard

She doesn’t know what she missed
She feels like a disaster
She wants to cease to exist
Fade into the plaster

Turn back time, start over
She didn’t want to be alone
Their friendship is now over
She lets out a miserable moan

Maybe it’s time for a new start
Be in the world by herself
She’s already given her heart
That’s why she hurts herself

She can’t be without her friend
It is no life at all
For her this is the end
Time to watch her fall

Don't Let This End

Dedication:
For Kendelle

Don't Let This End
How dare you accuse me of not liking you, you don’t know the facts
You look at me as though I just stabbed you in the back
You get so worried that something will happen and I’ll walk away
But you’re blind to see that I will always be here to stay
I want to be your friend forever, if you’ll only let me
But you’re so scared of tomorrow, just for now, let this be
If something happens and we decide to go our own separate ways
You can walk away from me but I will still be here to stay
I have to stay in case you change your mind and come back
I’m willing to wait forever if there’s a chance for another crack
I start to cry and mum asks what’s wrong, I say there’s something in my eye
But I know she sees right through me and my problems I can’t deny
It’s you who will decide the fate of our friendship, where this will go
Stop messing around, make up your mind, I really want to know
I can’t read your mind; you have to tell me what you’re thinking
Have you been feeling down lately, do you feel as though you’re sinking?
Please don’t let our friendship end, it seems to be deteriorating
Please don’t let our friendship end, ‘coz it’s my heart you are breaking

Buried Deep Inside...

Every time I see you, there’s a scowl on your face
Every time you look at me, I stare off into space
There must be a heart beneath that bitter, outer core
But you appear so scary; you leave people running for the door!
You have a love of reading, and you seem to keep to yourself
There must be a heart buried deep inside you, but I’m too scared to help
You seem to be always grumpy, but I see the glint in your eye
There must be some sort of feeling, way down deep inside
I see the shine in your eyes when you talk about your books
You probably think that I don’t care, that I didn’t bother to look
Why don’t you show the world your true colours, let them out
Show the world what it is you really care about!
I know there must be something underneath that bitter, outer core
I’ll keep searching for it, I’ll continue to explore.

The End



Dedication:
I wrote this poem about my English teacher. He has on a little act, being grumpy all the time and pretending that he doesn’t care about anyone or anything. Most everybody hates him, but I’m intrigued by his act and I know there must be a whole other person underneath the mask he wears. He loves books (something we have in common!) and talks animatedly about them to the class who groan in boredom. They aren’t really paying attention, he knows that, but I think he thinks that I don’t pay attention, but I do. I’m making it my personal mission to discover the new person underneath that mask and I know that it will be worth my effort. I hope one day he will read this poem.

A New Beginning

I can’t let go of our past, no matter how hard I try
When I think about what could’ve been, I simply start to cry
Every time I talk to you, my heart is full of hate
But then I realise I still love you, and my heart begins to break
Just when I thought that my emotional wounds were healing
My head is full of flashbacks; I just can’t shake this feeling
Remembering the day when you said you didn’t love me
My eyes were glazed with tears and I couldn’t see
I can’t keep dwelling on the past, I need to move on
I need to shake these feelings, accept that you’re gone
There never really was a chance for you and me
Some things in life simply aren’t meant to be
So I’m going to forget you and the way you broke my heart
It’s time for my new beginning, my fresh start


*note* this poem is not about anyone in particular. i wrote it out of the blue for a competition with "new beginnings" as the theme

Diary Of An Anorexic

I cannot take even one bite
My inner strength will win this fight
I long to be skinny like the other girls
Happy and beautiful with blonde curls

I haven’t eaten anything for weeks
I exercise frequently and I can’t get to sleep
Just five more kilos I tell myself
Don’t care how all this affects my health

I look in the mirror and what do I see?
An ugly, fat girl staring back at me
I run out of the house, my eyes full of tears
This monster inside me has been here for years

I’m losing weight, but it still isn’t enough
I have to be skinny, I want to be loved
I’ve run around the block a few times already
I have to stop to keep my breathing steady

Mum’s really worried, I don’t know why
Sometimes I feel like I want to die
I’ve been to different doctors, they are all the same
They say I’ve got a mental illness, like I’m insane

What’s so wrong with wanting to fit in?
All I desperately want is to be thin
Lying in bed, feeling weak, I can hardly breathe
I suddenly realise, food is what I need

I didn’t realise it until now
I need help, I just don’t know how
The doctors tell me I’m anorexic
Inside, I feel so pathetic

I’ve been sent to live with other girls like me
It’s supposed to be helpful for my recovery
All the girls here are so thin and their bones you can see
I look in the mirror in horror, they look like...me

I’m still scared of eating any food
So the nurses feed me with a tube
It has no taste as it slides down my throat
I’m starting to freeze, so I pull on a coat

I’m gaining weight, on the road back to health
I can’t believe I did all these things to myself

My Heart Is Breaking

I think about him every night, every waking moment of the day
I try to forget everything about him but his face won’t go away
How am I supposed to pretend that everything is alright?
When I still wake up crying in the middle of the night
He doesn’t even know my crying is for him, all my pain
I don’t want to play. Love is a complicated and dangerous game
Don’t keep saying it will be okay because I know that it won’t
Stop apologizing and trying to make things right, just don’t
I don’t understand anything about you and me anymore
All I know is that when I think of you I collapse crying on the floor
It is impossible for me. I don’t know if I will ever stop loving you
Even after all that has happened, the pain you put me through
I have given up on hope and wishing on a falling star
I have found that they are hopeless dreams that won’t get me very far
I’m just so tired of all this faking
I’m ready to admit it now, my heart is breaking

Before I Die...

Things to do before I die
Things that I have to try
Wanna get my kiss in the rain
Save a friend and take the blame
Walk up an escalator that goes down
Go to school dressed as a clown
Audition for Australian Idol
For a good cause, walk a mile
And I wanna dance in my underwear
Ignore peoples’ jealous stares
And I’m gonna run away with the circus
For fun it will be worth it
Bungee jump off a bridge
Eat everything in the fridge
Audition for so you think you can dance
Even though I don’t have a chance
Go swimming in a pool at night
Get in a mud-wrestling fight
Tell a random guy I think he’s hot
Dance in the middle of a parking lot
Climb a building like Spiderman
Karate chop like Jackie Chan
Run with scissors to feel the danger
Do air kicks like a power ranger
Wear my pyjamas to the mall
Yell at natives in Nepal
Go to a party, feel the bliss!
Throw a coin and make a wish
These are the things to do before I die
Things that I sure want to try

I Hate You More Then I Can Say

You stole my friend
For that you will pay
Don’t try to defend
I saw you that day
You started talking
She walked away
She didn’t come back
Now I hate you more than I can say

The feelings build up inside
Until they are too strong to hide

I hate you more than I can say
I hate you to bits
I hate you more everyday
Fall in a bottomless pit!

I played along
I thought she’d come back
And now I’m writing this song
‘Coz she joined your pack
She’s got a new friend in you
Good luck you two!
I hope you get sucked into a black hole
Then I won’t have this empty soul

She told me she hated me
I was nearly chokin’
I can’t turn back time
Now I’m broken

The feelings build up inside
Until they are too strong to hide

I hate you more than I can say
I hate you to bits
I hate you more everyday
Fall in a bottomless pit!
She hates me
I’m chokin’
Can’t turn back time
Now I’m broken

It wasn’t meant to end this way
I hate you more than I can say
Much more than I can say

No Reason For Me

You make me cry on the inside and out
You fill my heart with sorrow and doubt
What happens if there’s no more “we?”
If together we are not meant to be
Stop trying to pretend
Find a new best friend
I guess this is the end
I’ll try not to spill another tear for you
We’re over, it’s finished, I guess that’s the truth
The truth hurts they say, now I know what they mean
Without you there’s no reason for me
I’ve seen the looks, I’ve spilt the tears
I tried to forget, but I face my fears
We have been friends for so many years
The truth is I don’t want this to end
I don’t want to lose my very best friend
A life without you is no life at all
There’s no reason for me, nothing to live for
Please don’t leave, I want you to stay
Please don’t turn your back and walk away
I need you and you need me
This is my final plea
‘Coz without you there’s no reason for me

The Lucky One

I just read a really great book about a girl who gets paralyzed from the waist down. It inspired me to write a poem...so here it is. The title may confuse you until you read to the end.

The Lucky One

Paralyzed. Now i can't walk.
Seems there's no hope at all.
He came once a week to have a talk
That guy that stopped my fall.

He risked his life for me, a girl he didn't know.
But the car still hit me. It was fast and he was slow.

I don't know how to thank him, words couldn't say enough.
I know i'll be there for him, when times are getting rough.

A terrible accident, but a friendship begun,
Even though i can't walk, i'm the lucky one.