a new puppy

a new puppy! how exciting! a bundle of fur!
running so fast, his legs are a blur!
endlessly happy and full of joy
chews on EVERYTHING except his toys!
big brown eyes and floppy ears
i want this puppy for years and years
naughty and playful, the puppy for me
my new puppy, happy and free

Empty Core

She lies broken and crumpled on the floor
She screams "i can't do this anymore!"
She violently cuts at her arms
Maybe she'll feel better with self-harm
She thinks everyone hates her, that she is alone
She cries herself to sleep and won't answer the phone
The voices drive her crazy, she does what they say
She pushes everyone she loves far away
She can't control herself and the things that she does
She's thinking of death because of a broken love
She stands on the edge and looks down from the sky
Now is her day, she's ready to fly
Down through the air and thump on the ground
Her screaming and crying a horrific sound
Now her screams are silenced, she won't hurt anymore
No more beating of her broken heart in her empty core

Void

What’s the point in living, when everyone wants you dead?
What’s the point in love when it’s screwing in your head?
What’s the point in living, when everyone hates you more each day?
What’s the point of anything if the one you love pushes you away?
I love him more than anything but I’m afraid of getting hurt
So I hurt him and lied to him for all that I was worth
I stabbed him in the back and didn’t mean to hurt him at all
Now I’m regretting everything and bashing my head on a wall
I push everyone away, without realizing I just….avoid
The panic and loneliness is creeping up…sucking me into its void.

Sorry

Knowing you’re mad at me brings a tear to my eye
Its even worse cos it’s all my fault, is this goodbye?
You say you forgive me, that everything’s good
I’m just so ashamed; I wanna hide in a hood
I can never forgive myself for what I did
It’s like I unconsciously made a mistake, like a kid
I guess I’ll always love you in some way
Even if you won’t give me the time of day
The unrequited love back then really sucked
But that’s no reason for my stupid revenge, enough is enough
I didn’t even want revenge; I just wanted to make you happy
But I screwed up big time and everything went crappy
You say you forgive me that you’re no longer mad
But the fact that I hurt you makes me feel sad

mess

i am a doofus i mess everything up
i keep hurting people, i can't get enough
i don't know why, i really don't mean it
i've made so many mistakes, throw me in a pit
i'm sorry, i still want to be your friend
but i'm a dickhead making things end
seriously, i just.....i can't find the words
for you to forgive me would just be absurd